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| Happy Birthday!!! |
TO MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!
Yep, 26 years in this earth and it seems like I was just born yesterday, literally. It's the time of year when you really think about things that happened in your life and ponder.
Hayyyyy!!! What a year it's been!
Nice to know though, that I am still alive! |
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| It's been a long time |
Long time no write...
I've been so busy with my life lately. Just got back from Europe (which was a great experience!). Right now I am still trying to get back with the swing of things at work and my usual life.
What's to talk about? Europe? It was a fun experience but I really do not want to discuss it right now. What I want to discuss is my battle with depression of some sort. I do not honestly know. All I know is that I cry a lot. My mood changes so quick from happy to sad and when I am sad, I cry non-stop. I've been thinking it's probably because I've been missing home so much. Which is reasonable because I haven't seen my family in 3 years. The first time was ever away from my family, and then, for three years of not seeing them, that's too much for me. I think.
Everyday, sometimes I am so happy and then all of a sudden, I am so sad. I feel like my heart is way down below the ground and I need to find a way to pick it up.
Sometimes I think I am crazy. My husband says no, people have those problems. But it is so weird. I feel like crying everyday. I feel so alone. Even after the vacation. I should be very thankful for having that opportunity, but I am so depressed I don't even know what to do with the experience.
I called in today, by the way. I can't possibly work in my condition, crying a lot like crazy. Tears are just non-stop. My husband told me to watch my Korean movies to make me laugh (I am filipino). My husband is so loving and understanding that he makes me feel so depressed, as well.
I do not know what to do. Now, I really know why some people kill themselves. Not that I am thinking about doing it. It crossed my mind, yes, but I am way too chicken when it comes to physical pain. So there's no way I am doing it. But see, when I feel so down, I just want to put an end to it. An end to the pain. |
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Name: isay
Home: Somewhere, Fl, United States
About Me: Trying to get online therapy for my deepest thoughts and emotions on certain issues that affect my life, as well as the society. But generally, yeah, I am a good and a beautiful person, hehehe...
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